6/25/2011

I Want To Meet You

Dear  My Little Girl,

I decided to try to have you this month.
This decision which is unexpectation is a little supering to me.
The beginning is that my period was late, so I went to see a doctor.
 The doctor told me that "maybe you don't know you're pregnant."
 It really shocked me…………..

After I left the hospital, I thought  it over.
I haven't decided to have you, so I avoid getting pregnant, but the truth isn't what I think.
Did I  get pregnant?  BUT  I think I'm not ready to become a mother,
If I got pregnant, what I will do?
The answer is that I will give birth BUT I don't want to  get pregnant now.
I was stuck by the topic..........#$%^&*.........
I consider the topic over and over again and ask myself the question several time.

Finally. I have a concision.
No mater what I rejected it, I should accept it because it is a fact which can't change.
I decided to keep you although  you're an accident.
 
Next day my period is coming.
I felt upsad.
ya ya ya . I'm an  unknown quantity as you see it.
I changed my mind on that day.
How can you don't come into my life after I expect to see you?
I want to meet you.
My Little Girl.
I'm ready to have you.